haha LONG TIME NO SEE EVERYONE!

its been a while :3 how is everyone?

summer is here and life is boring (as usual!). retreat is this friday ALSO my brother's 15th birthday. i asked him what he wanted for his bday and guess what he said? he said he wanted a bible. you know, i expected him to say something like a cd, game, or any sort of electronic entertainment device thingy, but i guess not. although, a bible isn't too bad so i'll definately get him one!

wowsers .. really bored right now. definately excited for my las vegas/los angelos trip in july! not to mention, my panic! at the disco concert! PRETTY EXCITED :3 also, i have to draw conni and dina their bleach/naruto pictures! sorry sorry! i will get those to you guys ASAP :D

i went to a revival on saturday with my cousin, helen (miss melon!) and it was awesome. helen (miss melon) sang with the hope praise team and she sounds SUPER DUPER! she's such a good singer :3 then we went out to eat and i didn't get home until 11:30-ish. also, i met some new people like joanne, daniel, solomon, johnny, and many more! plus, i met some old friends (elementary school friends) that i haven't seen for like effing seven years! there was jenny, james, dongjin, joy, james NUMBER 2, and alin! nice seeing everyone, ne?

haha that's it for now

have fun reading my ramblings!

wow, i haven't updated in a long time  well i finally did .. actually, i did it because i need some advise and i need some love from everyone ~ i just broke up with my bf.

here's the story i guess ..

i guess last monday i was with bo (my bf) because we somewhat confessed our feelings towards each other and i must've been really excited because bo is really cute and he's the sweetest guy you'll ever meet .. so my excitement got the best of me and i deliberately just went against my parents orders about having a bf, especially in a time like CSAP testing, and there we have it, my first bf. well, there's been a lot of spark and stuff between us i guess for that couple of days then on thursday i just felt that all of the spark was sucked out of me. i had started my period that day (be mature .. all the girls go through it and guys, you'll have to deal with it when you get married or if you get a girlfriend ) so i thought that maybe it was 'cause of my moodswings because i have crazy moodswings when i'm PMSing .. so i thought i'd let it pass. then friday came .. saturday .. then sunday .. and then today. i kept on telling myself, 'it's because of your period .. it's because of your period.'

well, one thing i know that's not my period is God was speaking to me. i'm a christian so seeing signs from God isn't something to freak out over, but to take seriously .. i just couldn't handle the pressure of lying to my parents, talking all lovey-dovey, and most of all, i didn't want to get rid of my innocence when i got my first kiss. i just really couldn't handle the pressure. so i just dropped by books and stuff and prayed ~ like at this point, i was crying. i just prayed, asking God what I should do and that he should give me a sign .. that any sign was more then enough to just let me know what to do. then, i remembered how my parents were telling me no bf until after high school and how God wants us to obey our parents. i prayed that God would give me courage in telling bo what I needed to tell him and so i signed on AIM and asked him if he felt any spark between us. i told him to answer honestly. he did and he said that the spark was dying a bit and i told him that maybe we should just .. stop. i was so grateful to God when bo said that if it made me happy then he would do it. we're still friends of course

just times like these, it makes me happy to know that God's there for me and always will be there for me .. all i want to say is, "Thanks God for being there for me."

aaah, this week was hectic. i'm just busy with homework and on thursday my brother went to the hospital. he's okay now, but i guess during sixth hour his friend accidentally dropped 35 pounds on my brother's foot in the weight room. when my brother was in the mood to actually tell me what happened he said that his friend tried to do the incline (it's like benching, but the thingie where you lay on is tilted so that it's like an incline. i would know since i was in weight lifting class ). well his friend didn't know that incline is at least TWICE as hard as bench so he sort of tilted to the side and since he didn't put a little clip to keep the weight from falling off the bar, it fell on my brother's toe.

of course, my brother was picked up by one of my parents immediately and nearly gave my mom a heart attack at school and me a heart attack after school because my dad was like, 'your brother is in the hospital.' he doesn't give me any detail so i thought my brother was hit by a car or got a seizure or something so when i went to the store, i found him in the car sleeping with a bloody toe which just made me blow up like no other because i was so worried. yup, i guess my brother hadn't gone to the hospital yet and i must've misunderstood my dad.

so now my brother is walking around with cast/shoe thingie..it's not really a cast, more like a shoe..but i don't know what it's called!  eeeh, at least he's all better now! yesterday, he went to go play basketball and said it didn't hurt when he ran and stuff so i'm guessing it's getting better. but i'm still making him wear his shoe whenever i get the chance to because the doctor did say that he should wear it until all the blood that's like stored up in his toe and drain since his toe is swollen. fortunately, he didn't break a bone; instead, his nail cracked and blood was just stored up in his big toe (and it looks really gross )

lol..i'm listening to this song from the theme song of naruto and it sounds like the guy is saying, 'you punch like a drunken rider' but he's really saying something in japanese that sounds like that..the first time i heard that i started to crack up. aaaah, thanks conni for telling me where to download bleach. yeah, remembe when i said i was going to stay up all night to watch bleach? well i fell asleep like at three in the morning and only downloaded up to episode five because i was so busy with naruto and stuff. BUT BLEACH IS AWESOME  ~ !!

haha, tae kwon do test finally passed! actually..its been like three weeks, but i was too lazy to put up a new entry..hehe  i finally got my red belt and guess what? it happens that the kick i did to break the board was the best kick i've ever done! haha..my master complimented me

i got a myspace everyone! it's www.myspace.com/ang3lcak3 so come visit me if you have a myspace and add me as a friend! haha..

damn..i have so much homework!! why me?! i regret ever taking any ap class..it literally took over everything i want to do. i get very stressed!! and guess what?! i'm taking two more next year which will kill me..why do i do this to myself?

i'll ttyl everyone later..~xoxo~